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A lot of people who have been around the channel for a while, know I struggle with Bipolar disorder. manic depression and struggle somewhere on the spectrum. I have child like qualities and a lot of issues that go a long with functioning as an adult. I deal with fears everyday that should not exist in my world. I deal with the fear of success, I am afraid of the unknown responsibilities and unforeseen events if I do succeed. I deal with the fear of failure, if I fail at something I feel that I am not good enough to deserve what I am working for. I find myself caught in a lot of middle ground bull-Sh*t. I have a function level of, If I just exist that's just fine. I have a fear of changing my environment. I get unmotivated if I have to change something to exist in any altercations of my life. I go through a lot of anxiety and stress. My brain is always panicking over everything I have mentioned and stepping out of bounds into new territory. I struggle with imperfection and I hate perfection. I hate the boundaries of finishing a project. I hate promoting myself. I fear selling myself on youtube and in real life. I don't know my value or self worth. I feel worthless most of the time. I also know without me my level of worth will be missed. but what level of value is that? I don't know? Self confidence. MY self confidence goes up and down all the time. I struggle with self image. I want people to see me as positive. Though I feel negative. I try to be perfect when I think I just confuse people all the time? Truth is, I just struggle to exist. Join this channel to get access to perks:    / @sftortoise   Facebook Link:a   / sftmtg   Discord Link:   / discord   Where I like to buy my magic cards? http://www.cardkingdom.com -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- People we have on the show! kjcowboydan    / @kjcowboydan   backwoods collector    / Канал   Jesse Hellwheeler    / @jessehellwheeler   tibalts apprentice    / @tibaltsapprentice   MTG HILLBILLY: https://www.youtube.com/@mtghillbilly... cptwaffles    / @cptwaffles87   tcgdude    / @tcgdude   mugenfool    / @mugenfool   -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Where I like to buy my magic cards? http://www.cardkingdom.com Tempest game is not a sponsor, they're my game LGS to buy and attend events. Phone: 319-390-6441 email: [email protected] website: www,tempestgames.net address: Tempest games 212 edgewood rd NW, suit K. Cedar Rapids, IA 52405 Check out MTG Goldfish for some epic deals and the Movers and shakers list https://www.mtggoldfish.com -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tibalts Apprentice: Dark Ritual, TCG player link. https://www.tcgplayer.com/search/all/... Coulee cards and games of cedar rapids: 2660 Wiley Blvd SW, Cedar Rapids, IA 52404 Phone: (319) 449-4462 facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- AI music provided by: https://app.suno.ai/ AI is used in parts of this video. #mtg #superfasttortoise #sft #youtube #podcast #podcasting #podcasters #openforum #morningcoffee #coffee #coffeetime #goodmorning #morningmotivation JOIN STREAMYARD TEAM! Want to create live streams like this? Check out StreamYard: https://streamyard.com/pal/d/48226059...